'perfume'

Alas I finally managed to watch a movie in the cinema where it feels like it was ages since I last did.. well it was pretty much ages ago.. felt like I've been missing out soo much on the 'outside' world.. if someone were to ask me before today what was the latest movie out or the latest tv show people are hooked on to, I would have answered I have no idea at all!! Its not that I know much today but well a lot more as compared to the days before.. lol..

Anyway i went out for a movie with Nabila, my bestie... (hehe) not knowing what movie to watch, just simply deciding few minutes beforehand. We decided to watch 'Perfume' the story of a murderer...

The thing is I DO NOT... hmm no no I NEVER get scared or affected in any way by any horror movie in my life before.. well at least not that i can remember of.. don't get me wrong this isn't a horror flick but its disturbing, obsessive, simply different.. To understand this is to just watch the movie..

Here is my 'sneak preview' of the movie.. ENJOY..

Based on a best selling novel by Patrick Suskind 'Perfume : the story of a murderer' is a story of a deadly obsession set in the 18th century France.

Jean-Baptiste Grenouille, an orphan as a newborn in the streets of Paris with a remarkable gift of sense of smell. His sense of smell is so refined that he can differentiate the scent of leaves, the grass and even water.

At the age of 13, he was sold into servitude to a tannery and he worked very hard here as he wants to leave this place and learn more scents of the world.

There comes a day when Grenouille runs errands in the town of Paris and discovers the object that will transform his life : Perfume.

Eager to learn the art of sophisticated fragrance making, he meets a once-renowned perfume maker and seeks his help to teach him the art and secrets behind scents. In exchange by using his remarkable gift he creates and makes perfumes for the perfumer that no other makers could do.

Ironically, he was born with no scent of his own, a distinction which colours his undistinguished life. But Genouille is fearless when it comes to the pursuit of a perfect perfume. When he discovers the most intoxicating scent he has ever experienced, the scent of a beautiful young woman. He then feels that he has found his purpose in life, which becomes his obsession to fulfill that leads on to his journey.

To watch and truly 'taste' this movie is to watch this movie with an open mind and then can one understand this movie and the meaning behind 'obsession'.

WARNING : This movie is certainly not for the faint hearted.

Numb..

I'm so numb I'm blur, I'm dreamy, ....

I'm uncertain...

I love every part of my work. Without my work I'm lost...

BusYneSS....

I seem to be getting busier by the day these days..
lots of assignments, tutorial work, reading, practice....
and mid terms are just around the corner..

again I'm not complaining just working hard on my time management
and i pray for wisdom.. to learn and know how to manage everything
to the best it can be..

and yesterday just when I was in the midst of juggling lots of work,
the electricity just had to go off.. not to mention only a few rooms.
unfortunately mine included...

and amazingly I still had the time to have fun.. Maisons.. haha...



and I haven't watch a movie in quite a while so I really have to
find the time to do so 1 of these days... don't want to drain
myself out..

anyways that was yesterday..
today is all about work.. (ok and sleep too)
well WORK, here I come!! hohoho......

fear

'Face your fears now before its too late'

Its amazingly easy to say so but when you are placed in such situation(s) it becomes incredibly tough..

I have a fear of heights.. a major one.. its pretty bad that i NEVER went on a roller-coaster, its THAT bad that i cannot be a flyer although the people around me tried their very best to make me stand at high places and not scream at the top of my lungs.

I am scared of lizards.. This would definitely fit in the category of irrational fears.

I have a phobia of people touching their eyes or mine.

Those are some of my physical fears..


Here are some of my mental and emotional fears...

I am scared to fall deeply...

I am scared to get hurt (again)..

I am scared to give so much and not get anything in return..

I am scared I will never allow myself to fall again.. To never give myself the chance to fall again..

I am scared I will lose that opportunity to fall all thanks to my fear..

I am scared that I am simply too happy and contented with life now (cause I am) that i don't want to seek anymore beyond what I already have..




Quotes on FEAR...

Sara Paddison, The Hidden Power of the Heart
If you are dealing with fears and insecurities from old head programs, have compassion for yourself. Just love your insecurities, fears and resentments. Release and forgive them as they come up. Judging, beating or repressing insecurities just gives them power. Then you have a pattern that never gets resolved. Recognize that your real security is built from your relationship with your own heart.

Japenese proverb
Fear is only as deep as the mind allows

Robin Williams, One Hour Photo
The things which we fear the most in life have already happened to us.

Marylin Manson
One hates what one fears.

Bertrand Russell
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

Byron Janis
Fear breeds fear.

Rodan of Alexandria
Only a brave person is willing to honestly admit, and fearlessly to face, what a sincere and logical mind discovers.

Edward Morgan Forster
I would rather be a coward than brave because people hurt you when you are brave.

Bertrand Arthur William Russell
Worry is a form of fear, and all forms of fear produce fatigue. A man who has learned not to feel fear will find th fatigue of daily life enormously diminished.

Graham Greene - The Confidential Agent (1939)
One of the things which danger does to you after a time is -, well, to kill emotion. I don't think I shall ever feel anything again except fear. None of us can hate anymore - or love.

Louis E. Boone
Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.

Cyril Connoly
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise.

Dale Carnegie
Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.

The Vatican Sayings, Epicurus
Men imagine that celestial bodies are divine yet ascribe to them purposes inconsistent with divinity; and they anticipate eternal suffering after death. Peace of mind follows freedom from such fears, and will be gained if we trust to our immediate feelings and sensations.

Aristotle
Wicked men obey for fear, but the good for love.

Marie Curie
Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

Rancid
That feeling isn't fear, it's just telling you to MOVE!!

Anonymous
Fear is the prison of the heart.

Lloyd Cassel Douglas
If a man harbors any sort of fear, it percolates through all his thinking, damages his personality, makes him landlord to a ghost.

Anon
Fear not that your life will someday end. Fear only that you do nothing with it.

Swedish Proverb
Fear less, hope more; eat less, chew more; whine less, breathe more; talk less, say more; hate less, love more; and all good things are yours.

Elbert Hubbard
The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing that you will make one.

Confusion??

i know that some certain people has misunderstood me... and i would really like to clear it all up with that person... but unfortunately that person seems to be kinda avoiding me.. and i honestly do not see a reason why that person is doing so..

the thing is i don't really know why till recently... i kind of figured out that the person has misjudged and misinterpreted my actions..

because i am someone who really do not like being judged and simply assumed about.. well, who likes being judged and assumed about?? nobody does... and i personally try my very best not to ever judge others.

so i find myself asking, what can i do?

well nothing much actually.. i could talk with that person but how... if that person is ignoring me? if i really did something wrong, i really didn't meant to.. cause i really do appreciate this person as a good friend and would want to keep in touch... thats the sad part, looks like that is not possible anymore... its a shame... guess i just have to live and deal with it... its simply part and parcel of life..


these are quoted from one of the oldest and best selling books around- THE BIBLE..


the phrases that acts as reminders to me...


Matthew 7:1-15

• Do not judge, or you too will be judged.
• For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
  
• Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
• How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?
• You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.