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Friday, September 5, 2008
Reads...

After my finals in May, I got myself engrossed in reading.. Yup read, read. Something that
I enjoyed very much back when I was in primary and the early secondary school.


I started of by reading 'Why men don't have a clue, and women always need more shoes.' A light start, it being an ultimate
guide to the opposite sex which I felt I was in need of at that time. This book doesn't really give an all insight to the complexities of the differences between opposite sex but it does give some good clues on how to deal with some problems pertaining your opposite sex.



Then I went on to one of the famous Dan Brown books, 'Angels and Demons.' This was one really huge adventure. It was pretty good and very intelligent of the author to be very creative and use especially the artworks in sculpture and architecture of renown artists in the renaissance age as clues to the whole chase. This read actually rekindled my interest in the renaissance time which I have always had an eye for since school days itself. I wished we were exposed to more of the works and the discoveries made during that era as a student. But the fact is we're not and we have to undertake our own research to fulfill out queries and interests as such.




Both these books are courtesy of Su Zhen which I have yet to return n I will do so asap when I'm back in KL..

By the end of these two reads, I was thirsty for more reading. To fulfill my new found free time and well to fulfill my imagination I would say and also always having something exciting to look forward to. ASTRO is now longer any different from local TV and a good book is certainly the only way to keep me seated down without feeling restless.

Amazingly I've also noticed that reading made me stayed at home more without feeling trapped, in fact feeling so peaceful and excited. Its wonderful what a bunch of written pages can do to u.. That's another way of looking at it.. LOL


Friday, August 8, 2008
We need more perak people!






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Wednesday, January 9, 2008
breathe (2am) - Anna Nalick


2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him
Winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors
So accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to critisize
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl
So cradle your head in you hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button boys
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe
Woah breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again
If you only try turning around

2 AM and I'm still awake
Writing a song if I get it all down on paper
Its no longer inside of me
Treatening the life they belong to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand
And breathe, just breathe
Woah breathe, just breathe
Oh breathe, just breathe..
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
why?

why? why?

why does this keep happening? why can't my life
be normal? why can't i have a normal family life?
why must there be so much of problems?

i am so fed up.....

Thursday, December 27, 2007
schema therapy


Jeffrey E. Young, PhD, a cognitive psychologist and clinical researcher at Columbia University Medical Center says most people follow a pattern in their life laid out from early childhood. These "schemas" shape our relationships and life choices. People tend to relate to one or more of these 18 schemas. Which schema or schemas sound familiar to you?


These are mine..

Emotional Deprivation

Most of the time, these patients haven't had someone to nurture them, to care deeply about everything that happens to them or someone who was tuned in to their true feelings and needs.

Entitlement
Those who hate to be constrained or kept from doing what they want or feel that they shouldn't have to follow the normal rules and conventions other people do.


Pretty true indeed..


Try this quiz if u think u have one..
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007
of anger and hurt and new beginnings..


just when you start giving in and opening up again
and allowing yourself to be vulnerable... and foolishly
thinking perhaps just perhaps that somebody will
understand me

BAAAM!

i am so wrong..

people still don't get me.. correction there are people who do -
like my darling nabila.. who knows me the best and
NEVER EVER judges me for anything and well God is not
counted HE is not human.. but the rest, the humans..

my so called good friend..

know not a shit about me.. only make me feel worse than crap for
opening up...

me immature??

i have loads of shit going on at home.. i have to help carry some if not all..
its tiring to be Ms.StrongWoman all the time.. i need breaks.. i need
people who will lend a ear, people who wont judge me..

who will just listen to me being a girl, to cry for help.. since i can't
do that at home...



what's wrong with that??

had enough

im done.. FINALLY

everything does happen for a reason..

thank you God..
it may seem like my worst christmas ever..
but i think its gona be the best...
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mua Shhhhh.