sOoOo TEMPTING... hehe

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seriously freaking TEMPTING!!

OoOoOoOoOo.... LALA....... yummy!

Happy 20th Birthday SHALEEN!!

My friend, hostel mate and most recently classmate turns 2o today!



A very happy birthday to you Shaleen and have a wonderful year ahead!!


xoxo
-selina-

ps: sorry old pic haven't upload the latest pics.. will upload soon...

allmmmossst doonnneee....

another 6% to go...

just finished my chem 6B today.... what a RELIEF!! the 1 and a half years worth of chemistry&maths work.... okay maybe bout 8 months of chem work and 2 months of maths work... hehe anyway the point is... im soooo relieved... i just wanna burn all my textbooks, worksheets.. not my notes though... i do kinda sayang my notes...

but my relieve is only temporary.. i've got bio 6 and W2 on monday... sigh... but its not too bad as compared to the previous weeks cause i've got the weekend to study.. AHA!


today is a really special day!
my only brother, Thivian @ Steven turns 12 today!!
gosh i can't believe this.. he will be getting his IC dy! felt like it was just yesterday
that he was still drinking from his bottle.. haha...
and today he is a pretty responsible elder brother to my youngest sis...
im proud of u bro!
neway...



A VERY HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY THIVIAN!!!




from your -shashoo- akka...

too confident perhaps?

You Are Confident and Secure

You are practically immune to insecurity and self doubt. You're comfortable with who you are, and if someone doesn't like you - that's not your problem. Some people think you're too confident, but that's just their insecurities shining through. Your confidence carries you through your worst moments, because you know you'll always come out fine.

Are You Insecure?

im actually getting a teeeny weeny bit worried now that i might be too confident... which could backfire actualy... for instance.... i seem to be soo happy where i am and how i am now i don't really wanna change... but actually i should especially to fix my weaknesses... but...

do i wanna change?

........................................................................................................................................................................

what do i wanna change of myself?

1. to be less lazy
   
2. to cut the word 'procrastinate' out off my dictionary
   
3. to cut short my bumming around time
4. to SLEEP less
5. to study more
6. to read the newspapers on a daily basis
   
7. i want to be more dedicated to God
   
8. i don't want to give in to temptation anymore
   
9. i want to lead a healthier life.. exercise more,drink more water,eat more fruits (su zhen will be proud of me)
10. to overcome my ridiculous fears
    

i guess to all that i do wanna change or should i say alter myself..

to be better.... to be more efficient.. to succeed....

but to the other stuff... like my personality,my independence,my thinking,my character...
i don't wanna change... but to a certain extend i am worried that at the rate of how i'm living my life... i'll not be able to achieve certain goals i want to achieve in life...


the stuff that i don't wanna change bout myself now..

1. my independence
2. my numbness
3. my character
4. my single life

the reason why i don't wanna change..

i don't see any reason for me to change...

i guess ill just wait and will change when i actually find a reason(s) to change...
till then cheers...


*back to studying chem5*

CoMpLeXiTy

IT'S COMPLICATED...

why do things get complex?

why can't that person just make up tat person's mind?
it gets pretty tiring after going through that whole cycle over and over again..
and the best and worst of all is i can't tell anybody bout this... cause no one would understand..

if only the answer to everything is simply a yes and a no.. then complexity simply wouldn't exist and we would probably never even hear of such word... how nice would that be...


*thinks*


then again maybe not... maybe things should be complex.. so that people would really think and crack their heads before doing or deciding about something..
especially something important... to prevent people from making silly mistakes.. or basically just regretting their actions later on...


so back to my 'headache'.... hmppphhh....
should it be a complex thing... (it's complicated)

i know that i too am a contributor to the complexity of this complicated 'thingy'.
maybe i too should just make up my mind.. but it'd be easier.. if that person makes up that person's mind 1st.. sighhh.....

isn't this complicated again...

cont'd.... this is what i really want.. (part 2)

continued... (part 2)

I thought hard, searched & seek within myself to find what i truly want & lurrve... & finally i found it... this is what i want...


I LIKE....

I like to voice myself, my opinions eventhough it might not be what people would want to hear.. I like & enjoy being under stressful situations... yup that's what i recently discovered.. amazing & odd at the same time.. I like words...



I HATE...

I hate maths... calculations... formulas... numbers... they give me a headache.. they make me lazier than i already am...



I WANT...

I want a degree that would enable me to move around into different fields.. flexible. I want something that would require a lot of communication.. (with people mind you, not objects!) I want something quite secure.. (well nothing is truly secure in today''s world) I want a degree that i will enjoy by being myself & not surpress what i want to be..



& so after evaluating my true feelings & what i want... I decided to do law... those who know me since secondary school would know that i had this passion in the past to do law.. but somehow i thought i lost my interest for law as i grew older... but it didn't dissappear... it was just waiting for me to realise it & be really sure of it..

I don't wanna waste anymore time... i'm 2o this year & if i were to achieve my goals by 30 (hopefully) i gotta act now.. gotta finish my degree ASAP... i joined the January intake.. that's the craziest part... i'm currentlt doing my A'levels final examination & i just started my 1st year law... as some of my friends would call me crazy or 'dumb dumb' for making such a harsh decision.. too bad... this is my calling... am not gonna waste anymore time..

as much as i just can't wait to get over & done with my exams & am sooo excited & enthusiastic bout my degree... i will most absolutely miss my A'level years... & again i'm really looking forward to law & all the tonnes of reading, case study, assignments, mooting, etc that comes with it... i know the journey as a law student is nothing close to a walk in the park... and i know that there would be times i would probably feel like puking the content of everything i read or even throwing my book at the wall... but this is what i want... i'm up for it...
so here i come...

shalz@selina - law student... :-P

End of 2006 and the beginning of 2007

1 yr has just passed by with a blink of an eye. & it's already 2007 now. i'm actualy 20 years nw. hard to believe. felt as though i just started my A'levels in HELP just weeks ago. i guess days go on to weeks which goes on to months and then a year and then a year & a half & "ta da" here i am.


what a ride 2006 has been for me. i've been through quite a bit actualy. i had one of my lowest & weakest times in 2006 followed by one of the best times in my life all in 2006. whoa! certainly is one hell of a ride! rollercoaster ride i would say. lol


some of the experiences that i had & went through in 2006 would be learning who my true friends are, learning not to trust people easily, going through & recovering from one hell of a bad relationship or should i say bad bf? oh yeah & i had my A'levels exams. learned way a lot more bout myself & most importantly my interests.


basically i've grown more as a better person ( i hope ), gained more knowledge. both educational wise & life skills.. haha. i've been quite a naughty girl too... nabila would definetely agree with me i know. haha. i've also been a good girl to my family-more responsible & more in control of certain issues. & i have definetely bonded really well with my hot sister ( yeah you're hot raathi ) in this past year. life experiences & maturity ( minus the yelling at each other ) has brought us closer. i'm as usual always close with my lil' brother who has definetely grown to be a very good & responsible boy actualy. proud of the fella. turning 12 soon.and my youngest sis born in 2006,with her amazing smile she is certainly a gift from God.


living in the hostel for the past year taught me a lot about patience & living with people skills.. which require lots of tolerance. & to all the nice people & good friends i made in hostel especially the 4 of u.. thanx a load for being there for me when i needed u gals most.. ( you know who you are- nabila, suzhen, becca, shaleen ) and as for the other gals who has been there for me sharing some life experiences together ( deeppa, kaanch, mellissa ).. and dear qin ru my neighbour. thanks to all of you.


back to friends i made in college. spencer, kenneth, zahar, yong. you guys are some of the craziest, irritating people i've met in my life. and for the rest of the guys whom unfortunately i got to know later on this year. (i'm sure you guys know who you are ) loads of thanks for irritating me & driving me up the wall. my life would be less interesting without u guys in my life.. wakakaka.


& as for the gals shali, ying roe, net, marie. thanks for the time you gals spend talking to me bout stuff.. really appreciate you gals. and for maz, gal you are one really nice woman i am so lucky to get to know. glad i got to know you & be your friend.


for the friends i've known for more than a few years now. dayang, dharma, shan,... the list goes on (you know who you are) thanks for still being good friends with me.. and making the effort to keep in touch.


last but not the least. one of the most important people in my life (ahem) nabila J. hehehe. thanks a lot gal for every single thing from the laughter to the tears to the hitting (yup she abuses me) to the kisses (muax).. you are my bestfriend. & i really don't ever wanna lose you. you stay the same gal. u know u rock. n u have done by far some of the sweetest things a gal could do for another gal. -hugs- kite sama sama gay ehh! hahaha