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my personality info!

breathe (2am) - Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him
Winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors
So accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to critisize
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl
So cradle your head in you hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button boys
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe
Woah breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again
If you only try turning around

2 AM and I'm still awake
Writing a song if I get it all down on paper
Its no longer inside of me
Treatening the life they belong to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand
And breathe, just breathe
Woah breathe, just breathe
Oh breathe, just breathe..

why?

why? why?

why does this keep happening? why can't my life
be normal? why can't i have a normal family life?
why must there be so much of problems?

i am so fed up.....

schema therapy

Jeffrey E. Young, PhD, a cognitive psychologist and clinical researcher at Columbia University Medical Center says most people follow a pattern in their life laid out from early childhood. These "schemas" shape our relationships and life choices. People tend to relate to one or more of these 18 schemas. Which schema or schemas sound familiar to you?


These are mine..

Emotional Deprivation
Most of the time, these patients haven't had someone to nurture them, to care deeply about everything that happens to them or someone who was tuned in to their true feelings and needs.

Entitlement
Those who hate to be constrained or kept from doing what they want or feel that they shouldn't have to follow the normal rules and conventions other people do.


Pretty true indeed..


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of anger and hurt and new beginnings..

just when you start giving in and opening up again
and allowing yourself to be vulnerable... and foolishly
thinking perhaps just perhaps that somebody will
understand me

BAAAM!

i am so wrong..

people still don't get me.. correction there are people who do -
like my darling nabila.. who knows me the best and
NEVER EVER judges me for anything and well God is not
counted HE is not human.. but the rest, the humans..

my so called good friend..

know not a shit about me.. only make me feel worse than crap for
opening up...

me immature??

i have loads of shit going on at home.. i have to help carry some if not all..
its tiring to be Ms.StrongWoman all the time.. i need breaks.. i need
people who will lend a ear, people who wont judge me..

who will just listen to me being a girl, to cry for help.. since i can't
do that at home...



what's wrong with that??

had enough

im done.. FINALLY

everything does happen for a reason..

thank you God..
it may seem like my worst christmas ever..
but i think its gona be the best...

love, life, etc

im back to square 1 nw questioning what is love?
the 4 letter word that seem to have caused me a lota mixed feelings
throughout my life..

no, not the kinda family love.. its the other kind the boy-gal kind..
how do you know if love still exists?
how do you know if love can prevail?
how do you even know that what you're feeling is actually love?

argggh.. matters of the heart just irritate me soo much these days..
its not all about me here.. its also the ppl close to me who seem to be
triggering these thoughts of mine..
i just wish i could just shut down the heart.. and focus on everything else..

but no... i cant.. well technically if i shoot my own heart i can
but then again you never really know if your heart actually stops having feelings
even after death...
who knows anyways...

its funny i used to dislike Grey's Anatomy cause i felt that matters of the
heart were exaggerated there.. but now.. i could relate to it.. funny..

................

the same stuff really seem to be happening to me again and again..
and this only makes me wonder WHY??!!
it cant be coincidences its too much.. it cant always be them
maybe its ME..? seriously...

perhaps i should do something bout this before it creeps up to me
before it blossoms then ill be stuck..
should we prevent something that we feel is bound to happen or should
we just give in to nature to take its course although if this happens
its gona hurt badly...
what is the answer to that??

i really wana know.. if there is an answer.. i hope and pray to find it...


*an emo post...