of anger and hurt and new beginnings..

just when you start giving in and opening up again
and allowing yourself to be vulnerable... and foolishly
thinking perhaps just perhaps that somebody will
understand me

BAAAM!

i am so wrong..

people still don't get me.. correction there are people who do -
like my darling nabila.. who knows me the best and
NEVER EVER judges me for anything and well God is not
counted HE is not human.. but the rest, the humans..

my so called good friend..

know not a shit about me.. only make me feel worse than crap for
opening up...

me immature??

i have loads of shit going on at home.. i have to help carry some if not all..
its tiring to be Ms.StrongWoman all the time.. i need breaks.. i need
people who will lend a ear, people who wont judge me..

who will just listen to me being a girl, to cry for help.. since i can't
do that at home...



what's wrong with that??

had enough

im done.. FINALLY

everything does happen for a reason..

thank you God..
it may seem like my worst christmas ever..
but i think its gona be the best...