fear

'Face your fears now before its too late'

Its amazingly easy to say so but when you are placed in such situation(s) it becomes incredibly tough..

I have a fear of heights.. a major one.. its pretty bad that i NEVER went on a roller-coaster, its THAT bad that i cannot be a flyer although the people around me tried their very best to make me stand at high places and not scream at the top of my lungs.

I am scared of lizards.. This would definitely fit in the category of irrational fears.

I have a phobia of people touching their eyes or mine.

Those are some of my physical fears..


Here are some of my mental and emotional fears...

I am scared to fall deeply...

I am scared to get hurt (again)..

I am scared to give so much and not get anything in return..

I am scared I will never allow myself to fall again.. To never give myself the chance to fall again..

I am scared I will lose that opportunity to fall all thanks to my fear..

I am scared that I am simply too happy and contented with life now (cause I am) that i don't want to seek anymore beyond what I already have..




Quotes on FEAR...

Sara Paddison, The Hidden Power of the Heart
If you are dealing with fears and insecurities from old head programs, have compassion for yourself. Just love your insecurities, fears and resentments. Release and forgive them as they come up. Judging, beating or repressing insecurities just gives them power. Then you have a pattern that never gets resolved. Recognize that your real security is built from your relationship with your own heart.

Japenese proverb
Fear is only as deep as the mind allows

Robin Williams, One Hour Photo
The things which we fear the most in life have already happened to us.

Marylin Manson
One hates what one fears.

Bertrand Russell
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

Byron Janis
Fear breeds fear.

Rodan of Alexandria
Only a brave person is willing to honestly admit, and fearlessly to face, what a sincere and logical mind discovers.

Edward Morgan Forster
I would rather be a coward than brave because people hurt you when you are brave.

Bertrand Arthur William Russell
Worry is a form of fear, and all forms of fear produce fatigue. A man who has learned not to feel fear will find th fatigue of daily life enormously diminished.

Graham Greene - The Confidential Agent (1939)
One of the things which danger does to you after a time is -, well, to kill emotion. I don't think I shall ever feel anything again except fear. None of us can hate anymore - or love.

Louis E. Boone
Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.

Cyril Connoly
Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise.

Dale Carnegie
Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.

The Vatican Sayings, Epicurus
Men imagine that celestial bodies are divine yet ascribe to them purposes inconsistent with divinity; and they anticipate eternal suffering after death. Peace of mind follows freedom from such fears, and will be gained if we trust to our immediate feelings and sensations.

Aristotle
Wicked men obey for fear, but the good for love.

Marie Curie
Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

Rancid
That feeling isn't fear, it's just telling you to MOVE!!

Anonymous
Fear is the prison of the heart.

Lloyd Cassel Douglas
If a man harbors any sort of fear, it percolates through all his thinking, damages his personality, makes him landlord to a ghost.

Anon
Fear not that your life will someday end. Fear only that you do nothing with it.

Swedish Proverb
Fear less, hope more; eat less, chew more; whine less, breathe more; talk less, say more; hate less, love more; and all good things are yours.

Elbert Hubbard
The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing that you will make one.

Confusion??

i know that some certain people has misunderstood me... and i would really like to clear it all up with that person... but unfortunately that person seems to be kinda avoiding me.. and i honestly do not see a reason why that person is doing so..

the thing is i don't really know why till recently... i kind of figured out that the person has misjudged and misinterpreted my actions..

because i am someone who really do not like being judged and simply assumed about.. well, who likes being judged and assumed about?? nobody does... and i personally try my very best not to ever judge others.

so i find myself asking, what can i do?

well nothing much actually.. i could talk with that person but how... if that person is ignoring me? if i really did something wrong, i really didn't meant to.. cause i really do appreciate this person as a good friend and would want to keep in touch... thats the sad part, looks like that is not possible anymore... its a shame... guess i just have to live and deal with it... its simply part and parcel of life..


these are quoted from one of the oldest and best selling books around- THE BIBLE..


the phrases that acts as reminders to me...


Matthew 7:1-15

• Do not judge, or you too will be judged.
• For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
  
• Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
• How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?
• You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.

karma....

"What Goes Around Comes Around" by Justin Timberlake

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs]
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

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Karma Police by Radiohead

Karma police
arrest this man,
he talks in maths,
he buzzes like a fridge,
he's like a detuned radio.

Karma police
arrest this girl,
her Hitler hairdo
is making me feel ill
and we have crashed her party.

This is what you get,
this is what you get,
this is what you get,
when you mess with us.

Karma police
I've given all I can,
it's not enough,
I've given all I can
but we're still on the payroll.

This is what you get,
this is what you get,
this is what you get,
when you mess with us.

For a minute there
I lost myself, I lost myself.
Phew, for a minute there,
I lost myself, I lost myself.

For a minute there
I lost myself, I lost myself.
Phew, for a minute there,
I lost myself, I lost myself.

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does what goes around really comes around?

what if there is a karma police?

wouldn't the world then be a better place.. okay maybe not better but perhaps fairer??

so is the world fair?

hmmmmmm...................

happy belated valentine's day!

>>i was supposed to post this like a week ago.. but didn't had internet then and when i did... i didn't have my laptop with me and when i had both... i was too busy with other stuff... haha...


HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!




the usual red roses and chocolates...




beauty...

simply yummilicious.......

and

the 'TRUE' meaning of 'LOVE'...

awwww.....


*quoted from the movie Moulin Rouge..

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all these above is what i think best represents our simply too commercialised valentine's day every year...

its not that i don't believe... i do believe in valentine's day as a special day to treat your loved one... which to me could be anything... from a simply lunch treat to a massage to a toy teddy to a box of chocolates to dinner at a posh restaurant...

most importantly... every one deserves a good,splendid time with their loved ones... which again doesn't have to mean a special boyfriend/girlfriend... it could be with family, friends, pets, etc..



so have fun peeps!


my dog Romeo with his ex girlfriend, Xena.

TIME

life is getting busier by the day for the past few weeks...

its THAT busy that i sometimes have to be at a few places at one time... haha

don't get me wrong, i am NOT complaining... in fact i am actually enjoying every bit of my TIME...

and am seriously working hard to improvise my TIME management skills... TIME is the biggest challenge... there's also agility, flexibility, strength and laziness to work on... one at a TIME...







*tik..... tok..... tik..... tok.....

Something old-

Some old post I didnt post for some reason in the past- since, its here in my draft, why don't I just post it.. Might just help me understand meself better... As for the last part, I hope so TOO! LOL

Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy

You're definitely a flirt - and a good one. But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by. You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you. That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

You Are a Tiny Tease

You like to flirt and show off your body, but what confident woman doesn't. You enjoy male attention, and you're usually pretty good at not leading men on. However, there are times when you get carried away with your sexy behavior. It's okay to use your amazing flirting powers for good - but never for evil!

You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It

You're the type most likely to find love... surprised? You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about. And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone. Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect!

Where Will You Find Love?

weird....

hmm...
on friday bout 1sumtg am i received a call from my hostel mate who lives next door to me in the hostel.. im back in my hometown & so she claims that my alarm clock is ringing in my room.. the thing is my alarm clock is not working and it has not been working for the past few months...

how weird is that?

and so i told her that it is not possible for my alarm to be ringing... but she managed to reassure me so...

the both of us freaked out... *gulp

and so i told her that if it really is my alarm ringing she should get the keys from the hostel management people to off my alarm if not i'd be ringing for the next few days till i get back...

bout 10mins later she called me back... the alarm is still ringing... this is seriously getting weirder cause i have left my alarm on when i was out before and it rings for about 5minutes and it shuts by itself... but something is really amiss today....

then she and another friend managed to get the keys from the warden to open my room door to off the alarm... they removed the batteries out of the alarm...

and both the gals got back to the room beside my room.. bout another 2omins later they called me back... this time my friend said she has something to tell me and that initially she didn't wanna tell me but now she has to..

when she was in her room when the alarm was ringing she heard a few knocks from my room... she thought she might be hallucinating... but then when both she and her friend were in her room after switching the alarm off... they both heard a loud thump from my room... sounds like something fell in my room...

....................................................


that is seriously not normal... *gulp

i'm feeling a bit uneasy cause it is my room and i want it to be my safe sanctuary but all this....
hmmm.... doesn't feel safe at all...

rationally, it could be that i 'thought' my alarm is not working but it actually is... and perhaps it got ticked off by accident by me... and the knocks were probably another gal knocking on her wall thanks to the lack of thickness in the wall-it could have been mistaken for my wall by my friend... and the thump could be because my heavy criminal textbook which was arranged horizontally in my book rack fell...

besides this theory there could be another 101 other theories classified under non-rational theories....

i don't really know and i wouldn't know till i get back...

but what i do know is i'll pray... and i believe in the power of prayers that whatever it is... it would not affect me.... and that is my room.. and God is with me....

on this same particular day... a good friend of mine's house was broken into and thank God that although they loss some belongings and valuables the whole family is safe and nothing bad happened to them ...

here is something to ponder on....
60% huh... haha... guess hostel room 16 is WEIRD

You Are 60% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?